: Name: ~dreamer~; Location: Hong Kong

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Dance like no one is watching...

...love like you'll never be hurt...

...sing like no one is listening...

...live like it's heaven on earth.

Life is beautiful!

.: wishlist :.
tix to Alicia Keys concert
new digital camera
new phone (pda)
more office clothes
~~new bikini :)~~
more shoes
plane ticket to manila
carebear stuffed toy
~~big black bag~~

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Saturday, August 18, 2007

slap me. shake me. put me in a barrel of ice cold water.

it feels so awkward to update now. he knows about my blog and i don't know if he's checking it or not. how did he find out? coz li'l ol' me can't keep my mouth shut. he talked to me the other day and asked about stuff and i told him about my breakup. and then he accused me of having an easy time getting in and out of relationships. i didn't have time to explain coz i was at work and what better explanation is there than my blog? so yeah, i blurted it out.

anyway, i need to be slapped, or shaked or whatever. someone do anything to wake me up from my stupidity. why am i giving advices to him regarding his relationship? well...ok, it's not stupid. it's what you do for someone you care about. but if it's already hurting you, why still do it? arrrggh!!!! i hate myself! that's what i was afraid of...talking to him, him talking about his relationship, me taking it all in pretending to be unaffected but really hurting inside. (mae, commit suicide now, why don't you?)

things at work is going well. i'm getting more familiarized with things we need to do. my colleagues seem nice especially my boss. he seems really concerned with his employees. and at least my work keeps my mind off my other problems. but at the end of the day, it haunts me. i can't get it out of mind...while on the bus going home, while watching TV, before i sleep. *sigh* how do i run away?

- posted by ~dreamer~ @ 4:33 PM

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