: Name: ~dreamer~; Location: Hong Kong

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Dance like no one is watching...

...love like you'll never be hurt...

...sing like no one is listening...

...live like it's heaven on earth.

Life is beautiful!

.: wishlist :.
tix to Alicia Keys concert
new digital camera
new phone (pda)
more office clothes
~~new bikini :)~~
more shoes
plane ticket to manila
carebear stuffed toy
~~big black bag~~

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Monday, January 24, 2005

the damsel in distress has awoken to post again..

mood: lonely

hmm...haven't been posting for a while. quite busy with some other things (like playing MU). well, i don't really have the time to update this coz i'm in night shift and when i get home in the morning, i just sleep and i get too lazy to post something here again. anyway, i saw this essay on the web and just want to repost it here coz it touched me so deeply and i can relate to it sooo much. it's been posted to a lot of blogs and journals already, but i just want to share it also. here it goes:

What's a Meantime Girl?

She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She's the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One". You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.

She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a "real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light. She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She's too understanding, too comfortable. She doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she's cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely or horny and need intimate female companionship, she'll do just fine. You don't have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She's not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she'll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't bother her that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She's just so cool . . . why can't all women be like that?! But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs. She could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell. Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.

You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux. She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.

She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had a
front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.

Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don't know the reason, really, and at this point I don't even care. I just want to let every guy know who's ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won't be around.

Taken from the journal of Magouiser Boudreaux

YES, I AM A MEANTIME GIRL.

- posted by ~dreamer~ @ 10:37 AM

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Sunday, January 09, 2005

what movie?

grr...am so bored and sleepy and i'm here at work. to prevent my eyes from completely shutting, been surfing on some websites, which am not supposed to do...heheh, but i'm soooo damn sleepy!! anyway, it's not that busy and everyone's just websurfing too.

so, been answering some quizzes and here's one of 'em:

You scored as Epic Fantasy. Congratulations, you kick a lot of ass and are pretty entertaining to be around. Who cares if you can speak most of the languages Middle Earth and haven been on a date with a real person in years, that what the internet is for. That, and playing hours and hours of Everquest. But seriously, you rock.

Epic Fantasy

70%

Action

60%

Foreign

45%

Epic Drama

45%

Romantic Comedy

40%

Bad movie

30%

What type of movie are you?
created with QuizFarm.com

- posted by ~dreamer~ @ 2:23 AM

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Tuesday, January 04, 2005

liar liar, pants on fire

mood: aggravated

what is it with men and their lies? i mean, why do they have to say things and not mean it. is it so hard to tell the truth? and the worst thing is, you've already caught them lying and yet they still make some dumb excuse to cover it up. some guys would tell you they'd call you but they never do. some guys would even promise something but don't even keep it...really sucks!! are they doing that thinking it would make us feel better? yeah...maybe it works sometimes...when they don't get caught. or maybe i'm just expecting too much from them...but there won't be anything to expect if they didn't promise anything, right?

so please, forgive me if i don't believe what guys tell me now. it's so hard for me to trust men. i've been lied to for so many times. i don't want to be played a fool again. i don't think i've ever met a guy who's totally honest...or maybe no such man exists? well, i'm not yet totally hopeless. i still believe there are guys who can say what they mean and mean what they say...but they're already extinct..

- posted by ~dreamer~ @ 8:11 AM

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