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Thursday, October 11, 2007

out of control.

it's been more than a week since i last posted. i've been busy going out lately. i wouldn't even be home tonight if i had some cash to spare. but i have to save some money because i'm going home for a couple of days this month.

so, why am i always out? it's not because i despise staying at home. and it's not because i'm using it as an excuse to hide from my problem (i've been over that weeks ago). honestly, i don't really know the answer.

i know i can always refuse invitations from my friends especially during weekdays when i have to wake up early and go to work the next day. but i simply give in to their invitation. i know i can always go home early and sober but instead, i choose to stay out late drinking. i can always go home and sleep on my own bed but instead, i choose to sleep on the sofa at someone else's place.

this is me being free.

freedom -- something most young people yearn for. something most people think is the answer to their problems. something i once thought would make me happy.

now, i'm free to do whatever i want. no one even questions my actions. there's no one who tells me to go home early. no one even looks for me when i'm gone. there's no one who checks if i got home safely. there's no one who cares.

now i realize that i don't want to be free anymore. and now i realize that it's not so bad to have a boyfriend, a friend or even a family member to have the power to control you.



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