: Name: ~dreamer~; Location: Hong Kong

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Thursday, September 20, 2007

nostalgia and the singlehood

my life has been very busy lately and i'm not complaining because i wanted it to be. but somehow in the midst of all the partying and hanging out with your friends, you can't help but have a nostalgic moment. when the party has ended; when your friends have gone back to their place and you to yours; when you're by yourself on your bed trying to sleep, that's when it hits you, that reminiscent feeling.

i have experienced that some nights ago. even when you think you're enjoying your life, you'll somehow feel that there's still something missing. and then you'll realize there's no one to share these happy times with. when you had a great day, there's no one to celebrate it with. when something drives you mad at work, there's no one to give you encouraging and comforting words. when you remember the funny things, you remember it alone and all you can do is smile discreetly about it. at the end of the day, there's no one you look forward talking to whose voice could take all your weariness away. the despairs of singlehood -- something i never thought i'd care about.

i'm feeling nostalgic. because before, i have someone to talk to and share stories of my life with. before, i have someone who will listen to me rant about work or just about anything. before, there was someone i can have reminiscent moments with. because before, i have someone to call and talk to just because. we didn't have to say anything, we just have to stay on the other line for each other and we'd already feel secure.

there are so many things happening in my life but i still can't say i'm completely happy. my friends will be there only up to a certain point. and hard as i try to cover up my loneliness and discontentedness at work with drinking and partying, it still manages to emerge from underneath. i can only do so much as pretend to be happy, but when i wash my make-up away and take my pretty dress off, i'm just another lonely woman.

- posted by ~dreamer~ @ 2:32 PM

1 Comments:

goddess said...: tama ka.

happy naman maging single.
pero happier pag may someone.; 5:58 PM

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