: Name: ~dreamer~; Location: Hong Kong

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Dance like no one is watching...

...love like you'll never be hurt...

...sing like no one is listening...

...live like it's heaven on earth.

Life is beautiful!

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tix to Alicia Keys concert
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new phone (pda)
more office clothes
~~new bikini :)~~
more shoes
plane ticket to manila
carebear stuffed toy
~~big black bag~~

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Saturday, August 11, 2007

a realization

i have just finished watching "the godfather 2" and "csi: miami". that's what we usually do on saturdays, be couch potatoes and do movie marathons. well, i've always been a couch potato, lol! we were too lazy to go out coz it's still raining. and yes, it's only now that i have watched "the godfather 2". and yesterday was my first time to watch the first godfather movie. my sister borrowed a complete dvd collection from her boyfriend. it's actually been with us for 2 weeks but i've only watched it yesterday.

anyway, while trying to sleep last night, i've been thinking about him again. and that's when i realized that maybe it's really time to let go. the other day when we were talking with our cams on, i was watching him while he was on the phone. he was smiling, he was happy. he didn't even have to tell me, i knew he was talking to his girlfriend. if this girl is making him happy then i don't want to ruin that. i don't want to give up but if he's happy now, i'll respect that. cliche but if he's happy, i'm happy for him. i hope the girl loves him as much as i do or even more than i do.

but i don't want to disappear all of a sudden. and i don't know how to tell him. everytime i try to talk to him seriously and tell him about my feelings, it seems as if he doesn't really listen. it seems as if he doesn't even care about what i tell him. this reminds me of the movie "being john malkovich". i wish i could just get into his head and find out what he's really thinking. but it's nowhere near possible doing that so it will all remain a mystery to me.

- posted by ~dreamer~ @ 8:59 PM

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