: Name: ~dreamer~; Location: Hong Kong

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Dance like no one is watching...

...love like you'll never be hurt...

...sing like no one is listening...

...live like it's heaven on earth.

Life is beautiful!

.: wishlist :.
tix to Alicia Keys concert
new digital camera
new phone (pda)
more office clothes
~~new bikini :)~~
more shoes
plane ticket to manila
carebear stuffed toy
~~big black bag~~

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Saturday, May 31, 2008

am i being overly paranoid?

i think my boyfriend's cheating on me. let me lay down the reasons why:

first, i saw a text message from his ex sent on the 27th of May with this message: "Hi! Good morning baby...I miss you! =)". and this is not the first time. i think it was a month and a half ago was when he received a message almost exactly like this one and i let it slide. his ex is in the US and still, she manages to text him something like that? he must have been really special to her. sure, maybe it's a mis-text. but isn't it such a coincidence that there is a second text message?

also, just recently when i looked at his phone, i saw that all the sent messages were deleted. he didn't used to delete his sent messages. i mean, for someone to do that, that someone has something to hide, right?

also recently, he's been sleeping late, like around 2 or 3 am for the reason that he's talking to his mom who is also in the US. i would understand if it's a couple of days a week. but to talk for 2-3 hours every night?? what could they possibly be talking about? and as if that wasn't enough, they still talk in the afternoon sometimes. he misses his mom? ok. but just a few months ago, he doesn't even answer his mom's call sometimes especially when he's with me. but now, it seems like he's cutting our time short just to talk to his "mom".

am i assuming too much? am i being too paranoid? is there really a reason for me to doubt him? should i open my eyes to the reality that is already slapping me in the face?

those questions have not left my mind since that night i saw the text message.

- posted by ~dreamer~ @ 3:03 AM

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Tuesday, May 20, 2008

back to blogging?

it's been 5 months since my last post and why am i posting again? because i want to get some things out of my chest. i think my friends are tired of listening to me already. so here i am, blogging again. i know the blogging world will welcome me back with open arms.

in my last post, i was so in love. but now, i'm slowly falling out of love...i think. the time has come when the sweetness has gone sour and the romance has left. it is when i've given up the fight.

some people would think of this as petty but not to me. when something's important to you, you would expect your partner to give even a bit of importance to that too. and when he doesn't, you open up to him and talk to him about it. but even after that, there's still no change, it's like you've lost all the hope in the world.

i'm tired of being taken for granted; of being a second choice; of not being appreciated; of not being loved enough and cared enough for. but when will be the time to let go?

- posted by ~dreamer~ @ 8:33 PM

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